After living that lifestyle for awhile I went back to the title and got a band together and played and recorded music. And that’s how I lived my life. I have always found alternative ways to do things and keep my cost of living very minimal. As a result I have been able to pull up roots and wander like a gypsy anytime I want. However, I do have to plan a “long distance bicycle tour” a year in advance for it to be a nice experience. So that could be a short term bucket list. In fact I am planning a tour next year. A lifetime ago, just one year after becoming an adult, I rode from central Ohio to the central Gulf coast of Florida. Next year I plan to ride from the central Gulf coast of Florida to central Ohio, just one year after becoming a senior. Its like a commemorative tour.
As a child I had the title to please. At the same time I sensed that this body needed discipline and I was given to acts of defiance in order to receive discipline in the form of corporal punishment. Because I didn’t receive any affection as a child a leather belt across my skin was a form of affection for me. So the mistake I would make is deliberately disobeying just to get discipline. But then I realized it was more than that. I wanted to give away all of my power over my body. Even the right to live or die. I was a twisted child.